Posts tagged: Life

Ten Years

By , September 11, 2004

I’ve been ruminating about my future lately. Most of the time, I feel as if I have a solid foundation underfoot, and my life is going in the direction I want to see it go, but once in awhile I catch myself wondering if somehow I should be doing more. It’s like there is this check list of the basics in life,

significant other
family
friends
career
financial stability
general fulfillment
and so on,

and I have a nice check next to each one, and it’s allowing me to sort of coast along a little bit. Is there some way I could be doing more? Could I be changing the world around me in positive way more than I already am, if I even am doing so at all? Is it enough to have nailed down all the fundamental aspects of life, or should I be striving to “take it to another level,” or however one would say it in the Attitudinal Beliefs patois?

I asked myself– where will I be ten years from now? Will I still live here in my college apartment? Will I be doing the same job? Will I be married? Will I be a father? Just what will I be doing come 2014? Or will the Mayans have risen from the dead and eaten us all by then, so it won’t even matter? I didn’t have a very precise answer to any of those questions.

Nothing else in this world seems to stay the same, so who is to say that the person I am right now won’t also be subject to that state of eternal flux that plagues everything else. Whatever is taken for granted today could be gone tomorrow, or I may lose the things I need later on; or they might not even be there in the first place. I have no idea what I am talking about anymore.

My life is great right now, but it could probably be even better. I hope ten years from now I can re-read this blog and say without a doubt that I bettered my life since authoring it.

Today’s Question: Ten years from now. You. Well?

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Birthday Oh Four

By , May 20, 2004

The best part about having a birthday is that you can make people suffer. Wait, that came out wrong. What I mean to say is, when one’s birthday comes around, one can use that as leverage to make one’s friends engage in activities which they may otherwise not engage. Especially when the “one” in that sentence is me, that is a good thing. For my idea of fun seldom intersects my friends’ ideas of fun.

As my birthday is fast approaching, people have been asking me what I want, or what I want to do, and I have not been able to think of anything. A rousing game of capture the flag came to mind, but I don’t have enough friends in the area to facilitate such a game. Plus most of my friends aren’t as in shape as I am, and would balk at physical activity of that nature, so capture the flag was quickly dismissed. One can only convince one’s friends to suffer to a point, after all, and when the distinct possibility of myocardial infarction rears its ugly head, even the best birthday party can go sour in a New York minute.

I have at last decided what I will in fact do on my birthday, and any and all of you are welcome to come over to the Tiki Room I call a living room and join in. And what, pray tell, will we do?

We will watch old horror films. Lots and lots of old horror films.

With the recent release, and my subsequent purchase, of the 1945 classic House of Dracula on DVD, I at last have a complete set of the classic Frankenstein, Dracula, and Wolfman films Universal Studios made in the 1930s and 1940s. These are all fine films, and not the campy over-produced/ under-scripted mess that Van Helsing is reported to be. Sooooo….come one come all, and spend May 25th watching Boris Karlofff, Bela Lugosi, Lon Chaney, Claude Raines, Lionel Atwill, George Zucco, Basil Rathbone, John Carradine, Ralph Bellamy, Colin Clive, and a host of other stars of yesteryear, act spooky.

The probable line-up for Tuesday (don’t freak, a lot of these movies are barely an hour long):

Dracula
Frankenstein
Bride of Frankenstein
Son of Frankenstein
Ghost of Frankenstein
The Wolf Man
Frankenstein Meets the Wolf Man
House of Frankenstein
House of Dracula
The Mummy

I’ll start watching at about 1:00 PM and should finish by about 2:00 am or so. I’ll make lots of food and snacks and what not. We can wear party hats if you wish, and have cake and ice cream. Somehow I doubt anyone other than Fizzy will show up, and she’ll only be there out of girlfriend obligation. Nobody digs the old horror films anymore, but just in case YOU do, you’re welcome to pop on by.

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Treasure Island – Robert Louis Stevenson

By , May 14, 2004

As a child, my favorite book was Treasure Island. I must have read it four or five times during my pre-adolescent years, and now as an adult I am beginning to realize just how much that book shaped my world view.

When Jim has been captured by the pirates, they allow him to leave the prison in order to speak to his friends after he promises to return once done. He does so, and his friends understand that even though his return to the pirates is fully voluntary, and likely means death, he must return in order to keep his word. That makes no sense by today’s standards, but honor apparently meant considerably more at that time, otherwise Stevenson would have opened himself to ridicule with that scene.

Maybe it’s because I read that several times during my formative years, but I understand the concept that one’s word ought to have meaning, and that a promise must be kept. I don’t know if I would return to a pirate-run jail and certain death just to keep a promise, but I have a hunch I would do so. Let’s just hope I never have to find out!

I’m focusing a bit much on that one moment in the novel, but it was always the part that stood out to me as a kid, and it definitely helped me develop my sense of right and wrong.

I also liked the parts where the pirates did pirate-y things. Thus ends my book report.

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The Destruction of My Hometown

By , April 20, 2004

I don’t recall exactly what she said, but blogging pal Keats mentioned something on her page that set my mind to thinking of how badly Los Angeles has been destroyed by developers. I could probably spend a lifetime writing about the awful changes, but suffice to say that Los Angeles used to be a hell of a lot nicer than it is now. At times it can seem to be nothing but strip malls connected by freeways, clogged with traffic and choked by smog.

I grew up in Hawthorne, one of the many small cities that make up what most people refer to as Los Angeles. Today’s post is a reminiscence of what was once a beautiful city, now forever lost.


Here is the Hawthorne Bowl, which was on Hawthorne Blvd. near 141st. In addition to the bowling lanes it also had a bar, coffee shop, and a few pool tables. In 1961 the name was changed to Tropicana lanes, and that groovy early ’60s sign was erected. If you watch “Grease 2” you can see the bowling alley in one scene. If you go there now you will see some medical offices.


This next one is Holly’s, which was later known as the Hawthorne Grill. To many people, myself included, it defined Hawthorne– it was her heart and soul. You took it for granted that it would always be there. Unfortunately, a modern city can never have too many strip malls, so Holly’s was demolished.

The opening and closing sequences of “Pulp Fiction” were filmed at the Hawthorne Grill.

Here is Chips Restaurant, another ’50s-era diner. Happily, this restaurant is still there. Or at least it was the last time I was in Hawthorne. The demolition of Holly’s came as a nasty shock to me when I pulled up to a vacant lot in search of breakfast one morning.

If you moved along Hawthorne Blvd. and went one block south of El Segundo you would have been at Skippy’s.

Skippy’s was later renamed Biggie’s, and it was one of the great Hawthorne hangouts in the late ’50s and early ’60s. For 19 cents you could buy a hamburger, and french fries were an extra 14 cents. If you had another 24 cents you could splurge for a malt. Even by 1960s standards, those were cheap prices.

They tore down Biggie’s to build a Sizzler.

Here’s the now-gone A&W,

and a menu for the Wichstand, also no more.

After we moved away, we would always stay at the Cockatoo Inn Hotel when we visited. It was really nice

It’s not as nice now:

Here’s another long-lost Hawthorne landmark, the Lighthouse Drive-In. It was another eatery, popular amongst my Mom’s high school crowd at Leuzinger High.

You can click the image below to see the Lighthouse’s menu as it looked in the late ’50s. (Click to enlarge.)

Each time a landmark is demolished to make way for an ugly, cookie-cutter strip mall, Hawthorne loses something precious, but perhaps near the top of the list of locales which are missed is the Plaza Theater. One by one this nation’s beautiful cinemas are being destroyed and replaced with ugly multiplex theaters. This picture doesn’t do justice to the Plaza, but you can almost make out the wonderful open-frame steel tower with the Plaza letters on it.

Now let’s take a broader look at the city. Here are some panoramic photographs that will hopefully give you a better idea of the town. You can click on each of them to see them at their full size.

The first one is the block across from where I grew up. If you scroll all the way to the right (the picture is pretty long) you will see Mastin’s Drugstore. My mother worked there, many many moons ago. Look at all the unique buildings, each one serving its purpose for the community.

Now brace yourself. Here is what it looks like today. This is the same shot, 50 years or so later. May I present to you the Broadway Mall, currently closed and boarded up due to lack of business. Is it any surprise that nobody came here to shop? The Plaza Theater above was just one of the many buildings that was destroyed to build this crime-riddled eyesore.

In this next picture, this time the west side of Hawthorne Blvd. near 122nd, you can see the streetcar tracks running down the middle of the road. They tore out the tracks when they got rid of the street cars, and turned it into a left turn lane to accommodate the cars everyone bought once you could no longer get around via the Los Angeles Railway. You can also see Chaney’s department store. My father worked there for a while, learning the shoe trade before he opened his own shoe store nearby.

Speaking of my Chaney’s, here’s a great picture of the Chaney’s staff in October of 1957. Not exactly pertinent to the post, but a fun picture nonetheless. If you click it, it will get bigger. Can you spot my daddy?

Here’s my Dad again, this time with his friend Roy. You can see Hawthorne Blvd. in the background. Notice all the open space. You certainly couldn’t play baseball there now. Speaking of open space, my grandfather used to cook cabliagetti (sp?), a variety of wild mustard green, that he picked in the open field in Hawthorne that is today a part of the Los Angeles International Airport. My uncles hunted rabbits there. I bet there are no longer wild rabbits in Hawthorne; if there are any, they certainly are not living at LAX.

And once again, Dad. This time at his then-new shoe store. This was taken in about 1961. A few years back the city of Hawthorne invoked the law of eminent domain and forced us all to sell our property in order for them to build a new police department, so the store is no more.

Do I sound bitter? I am. I am deeply saddened when I drive through any city, not just my hometown, and see row after row of Home Depot, Starbucks, KFC, Jamba Juice, and so on. It’s just the same shops and restaurants, repeated over and over. I am not anti-corporation at all, and I think it’s great to have chain stores, but not exclusively. It’s the unique businesses that give each city its character and personality, and when you just replicate the same thing over and over again, it’s not only ugly and boring, but it destroys the quality of life and removes the fun of exploring a new city.

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Bunny Berigan – I Can’t Get Started

By , March 2, 2004

I was happily surprised that so many of you enjoyed the story last time, and as such I shall now tell you the rest of it. As before, I will tell the tale in the context of a song that is relevant to the story.

Currently Playing: Bunny Berigan – I Can’t Get Started

When we left off, Daddy and Mommy were back together in L.A., except they weren’t Daddy and Mommy yet. They were just two people who liked to hang out together. At that time, she worked at a soda fountain and he drove a taxi. On her breaks, she’d sometimes sit in his cab and they’d listen to the radio. Their favorite thing to hear was the now-legendary Joe Hernandez calling the horse races at Santa Anita.

Naturally, my mom had a fiancee at the time, but she apparently wasn’t too serious about him, for when my dad asked her to go on a date, she agreed. On their date, he took her to the racetrack at Santa Anita to see the horse races they’d previously only heard on the radio. According to my mom, the combination of the day at the races and a hot roast beef sandwich he bought her at the track (a big deal to her as she was very poor) was enough to win her over, so when soon thereafter he asked her to elope to Las Vegas with him soon thereafter, she said “yes.”

Bunny Berigan - I Can't Get Started 78

They each brought a friend along to act as a witness for the wedding, and drove to Las Vegas to tie the knot. However, this story does not have the happy ending you may be expecting. My mom got cold feet at the altar and said “no.” It worked out sort of okay, because the two friends they’d brought to act as witnesses decided to get married instead, so the chaplain still had someone to marry. In the meantime, while the newlyweds stayed to honeymoon, my parents had to make the awkward drive back to Los Angeles.

I’ve flown around the world in a plane
I’ve settled revolutions in Spain
And the North Pole I have charted
Still I can’t get started with you

While driving her home, my dad sang “I Can’t Get Started” to my mom. She said it was the first time she’d ever heard it, and to this day it is one of her favorite songs. Meanwhile, back in Los Angeles, they kept seeing one another, and eventually, they tried again and eloped (successfully) to Tijuana, and they lived happily ever after. Until Peasprout was born and behaved very brattily. The end.

I’ve been consulted by Franklin D.
Greta Garbo has had me to tea
Still, I’m broken-hearted
‘Cause I can’t get started with you.

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Frankie Laine – That’s My Desire

By , March 1, 2004

My father’s parents both emigrated from Sicily, independently of one another. They met in New York, fell in love, and got married. I think they hoped/ expected their children would also marry Sicilians. Their eldest, my uncle, married a Sicilian girl, and the youngest, my aunt, was set to marry that girl’s younger brother in an arranged marriage. Did that make sense? Anyway, you’d think that two out of three ain’t bad, but when my father began dating my mom, who was Mexican, they were not very happy. They went as far as to send my dad back to Detroit (they’d moved from New York to Detroit before coming to Los Angeles) to meet the nice Sicilian girl they had arranged for him to marry. It was all for naught. He pretended to go along with the plan, and arranged to return to Los Angeles to purchase a ring or some such thing, but it was all trickeration and chicanery, and once he got back to California he stayed for good.

Currently Playing: Frankie Laine – That’s My Desire

Meanwhile, Frankie Laine was all the rage in the world of music. The song that made him famous was “That’s My Desire,” which had made it as far as number four on the charts back in 1946. You can click the above link to hear the song, if that is your desire. Haw haw. Get it?

When my dad got back to Los Angeles he learned that Frankie Laine was scheduled to perform in Hollywood that night, and immediately asked my mom out on a date. She said she would go out with him, but there was a show she really wanted to see. He told her that he also had something in mind he wanted to do, but maybe they could do both. They didn’t need to, as she had the Frankie Laine concert in Hollywood in mind too. So they went, and lived happily ever after. Later that year they were married, and after some time my grandparents finally accepted Mom into the family, and turned her into an honorary Sicilian.

Frankie Laine - That Lucky Old Sun

The song came on the radio the other night as I was driving my Mom home from her weekly chemotherapy appointment. My father passed away a little over two years ago, but he and my mother had more than 50 happy years of marriage before they did, and he’s still missed. My mother shared the story with me, and I liked it so much that I am now sharing it with you.

I am realizing that as you age, your life becomes more and more memories of the past, and less about the present or the future. I hope I’m making the most of my youth while I have it, and creating lasting memories to one day share with my offspring. Today’s Question: Are you?

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The Things I Do for Clients

By , February 26, 2004

I was chatting with a client the other day, merely making delightful chit chat, when she mentioned that she’s been taking photography classes. “Bravo,” said I, “a worthwhile endeavor, to be sure.” She went on to say that they often need models for their photo shoots, and asked if I knew of any. I mentioned that from time to time I do work with models, but that they charge a premium rate. That wouldn’t do, she explained, she needs volunteers– models willing to pose for free.

There was then a bit of bandying back and forth, an offer or two was made, a hint was dropped, and suddenly I realized that in order to keep the client happy, well, that is, I mean to say, the upshot of it all is: somehow I am now committed to posing for her and her friends. Don’t ask me how or why it happened, it just suddenly became clear that if I hoped to land the gig I would have spend three hours posing for snapshots tonight.

Currently Playing: Rupaul – Supermodel

I had barely relegated myself to the role of model when even more smashing news arrived. She’d polled the other photographers and it seems that it’s imperative that I bring several outfits, including “attire that a DJ would wear,” and that I accessorize with “cool DJ sunglasses” as well as “vinyl records” and “possibly a mixer.”

Today’s Question: Do the rest of you often find yourselves in such situations, or is it just me?

I can hardly wait to strut my stuff. I have been promised pictures as compensation; I shall certainly post them for all to see.

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10 Random Facts About Me

By , February 23, 2004

1. I wear a size 13 shoe, which puts me on the cusp of available sizes. Some shoe-makers stop at 12, some stop at 13, so finding shoes is a crap shoot for me.

2. I never lock my car, and only roll the windows up if I think it will rain.

3. People who attempt to guess my ethnic mix are often perplexed. Am I white? Am I… something else? Turns out I’m 50% Sicilian, 25% Mexican, 12.5% Cheyenne Indian, and 12.5% Swedish. Now you know.

4. I think Coke is lots better then Pepsi. So is RC. Pepsi is too sweet.

5. I’ve never lost a game of one-on-one basketball

6. As a kid, I taught myself sleight of hand involving cards; prestidigitation, as it were. To this day I can still do some pretty neat card tricks, but I know that’s kind of dorky, so I tend to keep it to myself.

7. I collect vintage board games.

8. I consider myself responsible for Taco Bell returning the Enchirito™ to their menu.

9. My favorite animal is the monkey.

10. My favorite director is Preston Sturges. I’ve watched all his movies many times each, and can practically recite them as I watch, and yet I never tire of them.

Today’s Question: What 10 things do I want to know about you?

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Dreaming

By , February 15, 2004

Dream dream, even for a little while
Dream dream, filling up an idle hour
Fade away, radiate.
I sit by and watch the river flow
I sit by and watch the traffic go
Imagine something of your very own
Something you can have and hold
I’d build a road in gold
Just to have some dreaming
Dreaming is free

Years ago, I used to sneak out late at night and climb onto the rooftops of the tallest buildings I could find, just to sit and stare at the near-empty city below me. Everything I knew to be broken or dirty at surface level took on a feeling of newness when seen from afar; especially when basked in moonlight. It was on those rooftops, so long ago, where I first began to understand myself as an individual, and to wrestle with the notion of my mortality and how to make the best use of whatever brief time was allotted me on earth.

I had very little going for me at the time– I had few friends, my family was very poor, I’d never had a girlfriend, and I had no clear picture of what I was to do with my life. What ambitions, goals, and dreams I had then were simple and not very well-articulated, and although on some level I believed in my ability to achieve them, that belief was vague, and I never knew for sure if it was justified.

I’ve grown up a lot since then. I’m no longer the unpopular, awkward kid shunned by his peers, nor must I hoard pennies and nickels in an attempt to come up with enough money to buy something to eat; I’ve even kissed a girl or two. More significantly, the dreams and fantasies of childhood have given way to the realities of an adult life. But still I remember those nights, waiting for the sunrise with my head full of hopes, fears, and questions; I still remember my dreams.

Some people value money or success before all else, and only with an unlimited bankroll can they truly say they have “made it.” Others measure their success by how true they are to their spiritual beliefs, or through devotion to their family. My chief dream, the one I thought of most, and hoped would be fulfilled more than any other, was that I would one day find true love. Though I probably could not have verbalized it, I think that even at an early age I subconsciously knew that everything else I found myself wishing for would fall into place were I in love.

If ever I saw anything more than cheese in the moon above me, it was the disembodied face of an unknown girl I would one day love. For years she remained just that and nothing more, an abstract construct of my mind, and eventually I resigned myself to the fact that I’d never find her. I’d instead aspire to a fulfilling life of intellectual pursuits and artistic endeavors. Then, once I’d stopped looking, I found her.

When Alexander saw the breadth of his domain he wept,
for there were no more worlds left to conquer.

What do you do when one day you wake up and realize all of your dreams have become reality? While I’m not sure I have conquered anyone or anything, if I wept, mine would be tears of joy. I make more money than I need doing a job I enjoy– a job that brings happiness into the lives of other people, and affords me the opportunity to give work and money to those who need it. Moreover, I have ample free time to indulge whatever whimsical, philanthropic notion that may pop into my admittedly eccentric mind, be it driving around offering rides to strangers, sending wedding gifts to people chosen at random from Macy’s wedding gift registry computer (actually Fizzy’s idea, that one), or even just normal volunteer work at the local food bank.

Above all else, the most important dream of them all came true. I’m in love with a best friend who loves me back.

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Scrabble

By , February 3, 2004

One time, I was playing Scrabble, see? There were no tiles left in the bag. I had 7 tiles, my opponent had but 5, and it was my turn. Sadly, I was trailing 231 to 340, a difference of 109 points. That’s lots in any game, but darn near insurmountable in the late stages of a Scrabble match. In other words, I was pretty sure I was all for the can.

Before me on my wooden rack lay the letters UUERQS, and a blank tile. I stared and pondered, and lo and behold, discovered a word amidst my tiles. I played BRUSQUE across a triple-word-score square, and with the word I created going down, plus 50 points for using all my tiles, I earned 103 points. On top of that, as the bag was empty, I earned an additional 6 points for the tiles my opponent had left, and said opponent lost 6 points for those very same tiles.

The end result? I won the game 346-334; the once-certain thumping had become a narrow victory at the last moment. I felt pretty cool that day, let me tell you, because only the cool kids play Scrabble, right?

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